Just now, I logged in to my Friendster account after a VERY VERY LONG time.
And...

TARAA~



I was shocked.

"Wait a second~ Since when has FS had new look? it's... COOL!"

AHAHA~

I'll be diligent to update it.

Hahaha~ Facebook, your enemy has back!
LOL just kidding

xD

by the way, here's a link to my FS.

just click the silly flaming charisma

Title : It was All Begun from the Bed
Rating : PG-13
Pairing: Onew/Taemin
Summary: As the title said, bed is the source of problems...

( CHICKEN!!! )

Oh God. I am now in Bali. And why do I have to get such a bad news while enjoying my time here.. T.T

I was so shocked to know that our lovely SHINee's magnae has been diagnosed with swine flu..

WHY GOD?!

AFTER JJONG, ONEW, AND NOW IT'S TAEM!?

T.T

I'M STRESSED.

TAEM OPPA, GET WELL SOON.. PLEASE..

T.T

Okay.. So, I was surfing through the previous entries on my friends page (since I haven't updated it) and I found this on vitaemindaily :

( the rest is not important, seriously )

So~ I just wanna share here. I'll reveal my real face bwahahahaha~



What do you think?

Title : Wedding March
Fandom : SHINee, SNSD
Pairing : Jonghyun/Jessica, Taemin/Jessica
Rating : PG-13, I think…
Summary : People think he's a baby. But even a baby knows how love is.


The sky has been cloudy since this morning. But the rain hasn’t fallen yet. I close the manhwa on my hand and see outside. The weather today is really strange. I just can do nothing in my bed.
I’ve been so exhausted these days. The promotion days had passed but the tiredness is still here. I don’t know if the feeling comes from the promotion, or the school stuffs that I have to make up with, or maybe her.
I open the manhwa once again, and yeah, it’s still there. I stare at the picture I slip between its pages. Oh God...
That noona in the picture has distracted my mind for a long time, even before our debut as SHINee. Yup. That’s Jessica noona.
Suddenly I hear someone knocks my door. It’s Key umma.
“Taeminnie, have you prepared your suit? I want my son to look gorgeous in this happy day!”
“Ah, yes. I forgot”. I, then, jump and open my wardrobe. I take a nice black suit that Key umma told me to wear. “This one, right?”
“Exactly! Ah~ I can’t wait no more. Today is so… special. Omona, I almost forgot! I’ll go check Minho”.
Key umma left.
Today is special, but not for me. Everyone is excited, but I’m not.
I even wish today would never happen.

***
Jessica noona looks so pretty. She looks really good in white. I smile at her and she waves to me. I continue walking. Everyone seems so busy. And now I’m here alone, sitting in front of a grand piano, watching people go here and there.
I see the paper in front of me. It’s a music sheet, of course. And I hate to see the title of the song. To make things worse, I was asked to play this song here, in this occasion.
Onew hyung comes to me. “Taeminnie, have you practiced?”
“Well… Yeah…”
“Alright then, I’ll go see Jonghyun first. I’ll tell you if it’ll start”.
“Thanks hyung…”
Honestly, I don’t want to be here. I see the noon sky outside from the window. It’s still cloudy. No one notices how I feel. But the weather seems to understand. I believe I have this gloomy aura , the same as the cloudy sky out there.

About 10 minutes after that, Onew hyung comes back, now with Minho hyung and Key hyung, I mean, umma.
“Okay, it’ll start soon. When Jessica noona enters the room, you start playing, okay honey?”, said Key hyung.
“O…kay…”
"Good. That's my baby".
“Hyung, we have to stand right there”, said Minho hyung to Key umma. “Ah, okay. Let’s move there”. Minho hyung and Key hyung then move, stand near Jonghyun hyung and start chatting. I don’t hear the words clearly, but I think I know what they’re talking about.

“Taeminnie…” suddenly Onew hyung starts talking, “Are you sure you’re ready?”
“Well, of course, hyung”.
Onew hyung stares at my face with a worry look. “If you can’t, I’ll do this”.
I can’t say anything. My mind is really blank. Actually I'm glad. Finally someone understands my feeling. I keep quiet for the next 2 minutes.
And then, Onew hyung taps my shoulder, “There she comes”.
I try to get back to the reality. I touch the piano key but my fingers feel so heavy. I force myself to play this song.
Jessica noona comes. She walks slowly in her white gown. I'm amazed with how beauty she looks now. So pretty…
I need to focus. I keep trying to play this song, just be focused to the song, but I can't. My mind feels like exploding. The longer I play this song, the ache in my heart feels worse and worse. I feel so painful. My eyes are teary now, I know.

Jessica noona stops walking. In front of her stands Jonghyun hyung in white suit. They smile to each other.
I can’t take it. I can't lie no more. I can't hide this feeling no more. I can’t hold these tears no more. I’ve failed to act strong. And I end up crying here while playing the piano. I'm such a loser.
“I’ll play the rest for you”, Onew hyung whispers.
I look at him and he smiles gently to me. “Go… It’s okay…”
I stop playing my fingers on the piano key. The music stops. The audiences, also hyungs and Jessica noona, everybody turns their head to the piano. I know they're watching me run away from this room in confusion. But I don't care. Onew hyung smiles, takes a slight bow and continues the unfinished song.
I'm now here, outside the church, crying. I think I could die if I keep sitting there, playing that song, seeing them kissing. I can't lie to myself anymore. I love Jessica noona. I've been hiding it for so long. And I can’t stand seeing how happy Jessica noona now is, because since today on, she’ll be Mrs. Kim. She marries Jonghyun hyung.
I can’t stand seeing them happy. I know this is wrong. I know Jessica noona belongs to Jonghyun hyung, so why do I still love her? I’m so stupid.
My heart’s ache seeing Jessica noona in her wedding dress. I should’ve been the one standing besides her. I know, I know they think I’m just a little boy. I’m just a baby. But hey, even baby has feelings!
And I just realize something. It’s raining. The raindrops fall to the earth, along with the tears falling from my eyes.

***

Onew hyung told me that he said he told the people that I was sick, so I left. After the wedding ceremony I came back to congrats hyung and noona. I acted like nothing's wrong. Key umma scolded me, he said he was so worried seeing me running away like that out of the blue. Well... I think Onew hyung’s the only one who understands my feeling.
I take that manhwa from the drawer. I open it and the picture’s still there. I’m now trying to take back my life which is ruined once. I can now accept the reality there’s no place for me in Jessica noona’s heart.
But there’s something that I still hate, up until now. I never like this song. I always hate this song because it brings back all the bitter memories. It’s the song called ‘Wedding March’…

THE END



Note: I was inspired by Taeyang's Wedding Dress MV. It left a deep impression for me. And... Sorry for the storyline-failure T.T

Damn it. I've typed so many words and all of them are gone because I forgot to save it. Stupid!!!

Well anyway, that's not a big problem. I'll type once again but with shorter words.

I actually want to be invisible. Imagine, being invisible means:
1. No need to buy ticket or such things. Just enter the place for free!
2. Freedom. Just do anything you want since no one even notice your existence ;D
3. Being famous. We'll be able to appear in every mass media with this kind of headline, "An Anonymous Ghost Appeared Shopping" or something like that.
4. Stalking. Ehm, since I'm a big fan of SHINee, I'll sneak into their dorm and --piiiiiip--... Hehehe~ Forgive this crazy dongsaeng, oppa!

But after a second thought, I chose not to be invisible but to be able to steal everyone's talent.

Well, let's imagine this.

I'm not good in sport, but since I could steal anyone's ability, I would 'borrow' an athlete ability, for example. After I have my 'business' done, I would return the ability to its owner. Isn't it great? Hahaha~

Okay. Both are impossible, I know.
Just be thankful for what I have is my best talent I guess, LOL.
;D

It's been a long time since my last post.
Okay, I actually have A LOT of things to say, but I guess my fingers won't be able to type them all...

So, I'll tell you my life recently.

FIRST
On November 7th, my friends and I under the name of our school's Japanese Club held an event called G.O.T.H. It's an abbreviation for Geo-tropism of the Halloween. Well, the event was actually successful, but in my point of view, it was all a mess! No coordination, no solidarity. Come on, what kind of teamwork was that?! Well, not all of us were like that, some people had their professionalism but why, why should the problematic person be the crucial one in our team?! I was super annoyed. The story behind it all is SO long, even you can make a novel by writing it down. Damn it.
But the positive point is, I became closer with everybody (even with the annoying one =.=').
And the drama in our club hasn't over yet, until NOW.

SECOND
There's a guy in my class. He's a nice person and out of a blue, he told me that he liked me. Well, I didn't know how to react so I just say 'Thanks'. He keeps messaging me and tells me that he likes me.
As a girl, I'm happy, but hey, to be honest it's kinda creepy, for me, to have someone treating me this way.
=.='

THIRD
My homeroom teacher suddenly asked me to be the class' leader. I was like, "WTF?!".
Two days after that, my senior in Japanese Club told me, "You're the new leader". I was like, "WHAT THE HELL?!"
What's wrong with my life, GOD?

FORTH
It's not so important, just like other points I've written up there. I just keep asking myself why it is so hard to be taller. I want to be taller at least 5 cm or so~ Ah...

FIFTH
I think swine flu has been a new trend in K-Pop world. After Kim Hyun Joong, K Will, then Jonghyun and Onew. Weird~

SIXTH
In the end of the month, I'll go to Bali. Hooray for VACATION!!!

I'm so~ LAZY to type other things in mind. I guess I have to clear my mind and start playing PSP... LOL
Oh~ I have a plan to write a continuous self-made fictional story here...
Just wait and see...
^^

Ah, last thing to say, I REALLY RECOMMEND YOU TO WATCH THIS.
It's Bigbang's Taeyang's MV for his latest song, Wedding Dress.
Gosh, it's really great, and sad~ T.T

Hnnnng..

My days lately have been so tiring.

So many things to do, so little time I have. Geez~



My mind's in an error state now.

I have so many things to think about and now it's all gonna explode and I can't take it anymore..

I need to rest!

I need some sleep!



(=_=' )



Okay, now I'm starting to feel upset.

Seriously, WHEN WILL SHINEE'S NEW MV BE AIRED?!!

I'VE BEEN WAITING A WHOLE DAY. Damn!



Huh.



OH GOD I REALLY NEED TO SEE RING DING DONG'S MV SOON SINCE IT'S THE ONLY THING THAT COULD MAKE MY DAY AND RECHARGE THE ENERGY OF MINE!

PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE!!

*crossing finger



You know what, now I realize how SHINee has been my daily vitamin. LOL



COME ON~

I'M AN IMPATIENT NOONA DONGSAENG xD

Just now, I saw THIS



PREPARE TO DIE... HAPPILY!!!